July 27, 2006
Have you ever been walking down the street, having an imaginary conversation in your head, and then realize that you’re making the appropriate facial expressions for the fake conversation? Because I catch myself doing that every time I get a funny look from someone I pass on my walk home.
I walk and my mind wanders into conversations I’ve had on the phone at work, or with co-workers at lunch. Then, my mind flops the chats into something different. What if so-and-so had said this instead of that? And it goes from there. Eventually I’m making faces of shock and dismay- shocking and dismaying the poor passersby who think I’m freakin’ loony.
Speaking of walking… I have a dilemma. My walk, The 3 Day Walk, is in a month and I’m $1700 short of my goal. Which is a big problem. See, I can’t even check in until I have the funds or I give them my credit card info to take the money I haven’t raised four weeks after the walk. I (1) don’t have a credit card and, (2) don’t have $1700. I’m going to work my ass off for this next month trying to come up with the money- I’m holding a car wash up here in a week or two- but I’m afraid I might have to bail on the walk.
If I bail, I’m going to feel wretched for those who’ve already donated. Yes, the money will still go to the cause- don’t worry about that. Any cash donations that aren’t in the account already will go into a separate bank account for next year when I can start the fundraising in, uhm, September of THIS year. I’m so disappointed though, I really wanted to walk. I’m just really afraid that I won’t be able to.
So.. do I bail now and ask people to put any further donations aside for September or October when I sign up for next year, or do I continue to try to raise the money for this year? Gah. This sucks.