Year In Review. Sorta.
January 3, 2010
January - I had a cold. I tried to get some immigration stuff for my daughter done. (I never finished that, by the way. I should do that.) I got my heart trampled on. I got a confirmed diagnosis of type 2 diabetes.
February - I bought tickets to go to Mexico for a wedding. I reflected on my grandmother’s deterioration into dementia and alzheimer’s. Ana takes on solid foods.
March - I took on the dentist and I think I won. Maybe. Except he took my teeth so he probably actually wins. Damnit. I contemplated my weight and what I needed to do about it. I had my four-year blogiversary and my six year wedding anniversary.
April - I saw Britney Spears walk off the stage in Vancouver. I got really sick. I had more wisdom teeth pulled. I tried to name my car. No name has really stuck.
May - I had my first run-in with kidney stones. I went to Mexico and had a mostly good time and would have had a great time if my poor kid wasn’t so sick that I was scared I was going to have to take an emergency flight home the whole time. Oh, and I broke my toe in Mexico, too. The wedding in Mexico was gorgeous. A tax error was discovered and I suddenly owed the Canadian government 2K. A gas station attendant asked me if I was having a boy or a girl. Yeah. Not pregnant. May was not so fun.
June - I discovered World of Warcraft and have been hooked ever since. Wow, I think that’s all I did in June. No pun intended. (Get it? Wow. WoW. Haha. i’m so funny.)
July - The fourth with my girls! It was the best. I love spending the fourth with my friends at the lake. My girlfriend had her baby daughter and she was and is beautiful. I went back to work after my year off for maternity leave.
August - We sold our condo. I gave notice at my hated job without a new job lined up. The stress of that move! Sheesh! My daughter turned a year old. Holy bajeez, I have a one year old.
September - I started a new job that I was offered the day before my last day at the old one. Phew. Except that three weeks later they announced lay-offs. Say what? I was hired by my sister-in-law so now I have two jobs with limited hours. My grandmother was diagnosed with late stage cancer.
October - My car got broken into. My grandmother got put into the hospital with a very limited time to live. My daughter got really sick and scared me with a high fever, but it turned out she was just fine. My daughter was the cutest little ladybug for Halloween.
November - I actually started off NaNoWriMo doing awesome. I didn’t even come close to hitting 50K words, but I still feel proud of the almost 10K that I did write and I hope to continue writing more. My grandmother died.
December - Ah, my month of no posts. We got a new iMac. My dad was diagnosed with cancer. I’m freaking out. I’m freaking THE FUCK out, people. And if you know me on Facebook, don’t say anything there, I don’t think he’s told everybody yet… he has surgery in a few weeks to remove it… it looks like it’s all early stage stuff right now, it was caught on accident, but have I mentioned that I’m freaking the fuck out? My “main” job announced a second round of lay-offs.
Overall, I’m glad that I barely blogged because I don’t know how much more depressing this blog can get. I’m tired. I’m depressed. I’m scared. I just want 2010 to be better. It has to be better, right?
Oh My God Y’all
December 8, 2009
I just cleared my blog reader for the first time in, oh, I don’t know, FOUR MONTHS. That, my friends, is an accomplishment. Now can I keep up with it?
Ooooh, and guess what?? So I’ve posted before about the oh so awesome gifts that my husband gets at his company xmas party each year. I’m too lazy to find the posts and link to them, but in the past there’s been huge gift cards to Sears, a tv, another tv, and uhm, another tv. Oh, and a Sony Handycam. We always tend to win the tv. Not sure what’s up with that. ANYWHO. This year, they did the gift giving by seniority ranking and the higher seniority, the prettier the gift. I could not be more ecstatic with what Derek unwrapped this year. People, we now have a brand-new shiny 24″ flat screen iMac. Can you hear my squee-ing from where you are? ‘Cause it’s been two weeks and I don’t think I’ve stopped. So happy, so so so happy. Yay. Love it.
I’m keeping pretty busy these days between my two jobs (for example: I’m in the middle of an eight day work week here and one of those days was a 14 hour day including travel time). I’m trying to fit visiting my family while they’re in Seattle around Christmas-time in there somewhere and my pseudo-nephew’s third birthday party and all these other crazy social gatherings that I have this month…. gah, so busy.
I’m trying to read like a fiend to get some more books tallied before the end of the month. I keep getting distracted by the internet, though. Guess maybe I should go read now…? Okay. I’m going to go read.
Muah! Miss everybody and yay, I can comment on your blogs now because I’m all caught up!
Music On My Mind
December 4, 2009
My second job is working in a music/dvd/games/book store with the emphasis on the music and the movies so I have music and movies on my mind a lot these days. You may see a lot of brief posts on songs or artists in the future. But hey, short and sweet and musical is better than radio silence, yeah?
That said, I saw a friend of a friend make this comment about Lady Gaga on Facebook and I had to share because it made me snort with laughter.
During an opium bender David Bowie and Barbara Streisand had a male lovechild which they immediately bedazzled and then he grew up to get a botched sex change; and that is the story of Lady GaGa.
Not my quote, but hilarious and I wish I’d thought of it because it’s damn funny. And I actually secretly like Lady Gaga even if I think that she’s batshit crazy.
Ten Thousand Lightning Bugs
December 3, 2009
I’m coming out of blogging silence to say that I really, really, hate that song by Owl City, Fireflies.
you would not believe your eyes
if ten million fireflies lit up the world as i fell asleep
‘Cause they’d fill the open air
and leave teardrops everywhere
you’d think me rude but I would just stand and stare
Seriously? BLEGH.
Yes, really, that’s all.
Saying Goodbye
November 8, 2009
I didn’t think I’d cry.
I was wrong.
I just got the call about twenty minutes ago that my grandmother passed away. She may have been my step-grandmother and she may not have come into my life until I was fourteen years old, but I loved her just the same.
I’ll miss you, Donna.
Guess What? I’m FANTASTIC!
November 5, 2009
It’s true.
I’m not really sure how it happened, but I have a seriously long string of good days going on here and I am a happy girl.
I’ve just been feeling really blessed by my friends and my family. I’ve started trying my bajillionth attempt at NaNoWriMo (that’s National Novel Writing Month if you didn’t know, where the goal is to write 50,000 words of a novel in the month of November). The encouragement that I’ve been shown just on Facebook alone is insane. It’s funny because I know good writing and I know that what I’m writing is just absolute crap, but you know what? It’s the first 4,000 words that I’ve written in well over a year so even if it’s crap, how can I complain, really? That said, I was on target for the first few days and now on day four I’m a good 2,500 words behind, but I actually feel like maybe I can catch up this time. I don’t feel completely like quitting just because I’m behind schedule. That’s a good thing.
Work has been going really well. I actually got a compliment tonight from someone I work with about how well I’ve adjusted to doing the difficult stations and how well I handle it. It meant a lot coming from this person and I’m still a little bit glow-y about it. Work has also been good in that while I had zero hours scheduled this week, I’ve already managed to pick up 20 hours worth of shifts and I could potentially pick up a few more.
My grandmother has deteriorated again, which is the bad news. She’s no longer coherent and her skin is getting cold so the end is really going to be near. I’m just waiting for that to hit and to see how I handle it, but so far, it hasn’t happened.
So that’s what’s going on!
Oh, and my story of the day from work? My co-worker on the phone: “So, the other day I was at the bus station and I was picking my nose, but I was embarrassed so I acted like I was crying, but then this homeless lady came up and gave me a hug! Then, at the bus station today? She was there! And she recognized me and came up to see if I was okay!” Ahaha, that’s awesome.
There Is No Subject.
October 28, 2009
This is my joy.
There’s more on YouTube under my username Wuzzlicious if you’re interested.
She cracks me up. It’s okay. I know I’m biased.
In A Thorn Bush
October 14, 2009
Dooce made a post recently comparing her life these days to a skiing story from when she was younger where she wound up face first in a thorn bush. Her life these days? In a thorn bush. I couldn’t even begin to come up with a better way to describe my own life right now. I’m in a thorn bush.
I hate for this blog to be all doom and gloom and whine and that’s probably why I haven’t been posting much. It’s really starting to feel like every single time I can start to pick myself up, I get knocked back down before I was ever able to dust off my behind from the first tumble.
This whole grandma being sick thing has me thrown for a loop because it’s unexpected. This isn’t the same grandmother that I posted about a while back. This is my stepmother’s mother and she’s been a part of my life for a good fourteen years. One day she was fine, then three weeks later she’s in her last month (if not week) of life. I just don’t get it.
And then to travel a few hours to go see her, spend the night at my sister’s place and to wake up to find my passenger window shattered? That was so not what I needed.
I’m just tired. I’m really tired of being hit when I’m down and I’m trying really hard to stay positive, but it’s hard. Even as I write this, the day after my car was broken into, I’m nursing my daughter’s fever. Her fever of 103. Because seriously, universe, the rest of this shit wasn’t enough?
Give me a break.
I’m really really hoping for some more upbeat positive posts to come. There ARE good things going on right now, it’s just really hard to find them and remember them with everything else. I’ll work on it for you guys.
Perhaps It’s Time For Another Update
October 13, 2009
So.
I bought a new house.
I moved into the new house.
I got a new job.
My new job announced budget cuts and lay-offs.
I’ve somehow managed to keep my new job, but with limited to no hours, so really, what’s the point? I don’t know, but I’m sticking this out.
I got a second new job to help fill in the gaps and make ends meet.
I found out my grandmother has cancer.
Two weeks ago she was put in the hospital because her lungs keep filling with fluid.
Three days ago she was given a week to two weeks to live.
I went down to visit grandmother.
My car got broken into and my gps navigation system was stolen.
It cost me twice the cost of the nav system to replace my shattered window.
That was this morning. Now I’m at home. And I’m tired. And I’m sad.
What I’ve Been Up To
August 28, 2009
I sold my house.
I quit my job.
I’m five weeks from being homeless. (Not really, if we don’t have a place we’ll move in with my in-laws.)
We put an offer on a house. It’s a foreclosure. We won’t know for up to two weeks if we get it or not.
I’m waiting to hear back about a hospital call center job.
My daughter turned one.
I am slowly going insane.
Yeah, I think that’s about it.
How are you guys?